all i want to do is to blog now. yes, finally i feel like blogging a decent entry. im feeling very weird nowadays. sleepless nights and weird dreams. waking up in the middle of the night and taking a long time to fall asleep after that. ugh. i really hate this kind of "me". sometimes, it is that kind of unexplainable and undescribable feeling that makes one feel so down. for me, i dun even know whats the reason that is bringing my whole hol mood down. i felt like crying and it has been so long since i last cried. it's not to seek attention or whatever but to let myself feel better. even though i may have lost something, at least, i had not lost the ability to cry. i want to cry!! i want to see tears !! i want to go back to the old me.
some things should be just left unsaid. if u ask me, yes. that's the definition of pain.
I WANT TO CRY.